I have a problem, I am not a happy person right now. And by right now I mean that I am in the darkest times of a breakup.
I have a problem where I get very attached to people – but not like attention, but like get attached to single people – a friend, a boyfriend, it doesn’t matter. I focus all my attention on a single person and I throw all my standards of treatment out the window.
When you have a friend or boyfriend or anything, you should know what you want to get out of that relationship. You must define those items and make sure that the relationship is always providing those items for you. Once it no longer does, it’s time to fix it.
I deleted my last two weeks of blogs because they were very bad, scattered thoughts and very dark things. I don’t want to continue with that. I must pull myself up by the boot straps and beat this thing and also learn from it so that it doesn’t happen again!
Over the next few weeks I will be blogging regularly in an effort to start to figure who I am and what makes me happy. If I don’t know what makes me happy, how can anyone provide that to me?!
Right now I feel good but that is only because today, just a couple hours ago, I had a full fledged melt down and to be honest I am just exhausted.
I need to get sleep right now so I am going to end this, but expect to be channeling my feelings right here. I must do this as much on my own as possible because it is me that needs work!