Today we started to clean some of the stuff around the house.  My mother was a bit of a “stuff saver”, so there is a lot of things around.  To be very honest, at this point I just need to move the things that make me think she will be home any second out of sight.

I do find myself just pacing around the house.  Paul and dad went to the store and we had the TV off and it was so quiet in the house.  It is NEVER quiet in the house, mom couldn’t stand it!

I moved Samantha’s car so that I could move my car and somehow I managed to lock her keys in her car and the spare are in the glove box…  I have no idea how I did it, but it happened.  Now we are waiting for someone to come get them out.

The dogs just ate so they are going a little crazy.  We tired them out pretty good earlier.  I try to take it easy for a while after they eat, but Nickel usually doesn’t let me.

Just had to pull some weeds to be able to move my car closer to the house.  Them weeds are horrible!  I think we are going to kill everything and use potted plants in there so that we can easily keep the weeds out.  Like fill it with stone or something.

I have always said that I really messed up on our living room, in that I didn’t give it enough space or plan how it was going to be orientated.  Needless to say that means there isn’t much room for a sofa and we definitely can’t fit a sofa and love-seat.  The problem with this is that there are so many of us and we don’t have the space for people to sit.  Maybe we can come up with something later.  Really this is no big deal right now.

Why is it that late at night is when I start feeling the pain?  Why is it when no one is around is when I want a hug and when people are around I don’t?  This was not the way it was supposed to happen with mom.  She was supposed to give us a warning that she was leaving.  I can’t understand it all.