There are very few things that I regret in my life, but there are some things.  I recently started thinking about one of those regrets and have found myself feeling sad about what could have been.  I found with my recent changes in life that you can’t dwell on things from the past that you can no longer change or basically don’t have control over.

I think it is OK to be sad about something, but don’t cross that line of becoming obsessed with it.  I am learning a lot of things about the hard times in life lately.  I wish these lessons didn’t have to come to me with so much pain but sometimes you have to just suck it up and keep moving forward!

Actually this weekend was pretty good.  I feel like I got a lot accomplished since I got back from Atlanta.  I got myself my birthday present – a little early, but I just can’t keep a present from myself Also, I didn’t really expect to find what I really wanted so quickly, but I did so I had to have it.  I will post some pictures of it later.  I worked out a plan with my brother to get the property cleaned up and I got myself new safety glasses, that actually fit!!  Paul got the router working and so the website is back up and I can write this

I got a new hair do as well – it isn’t crazy different but just enough to make me feel a bit better – everyone knows that when a woman has a big change in her life she MUST do something different to her hair

Last, but something I am happy about, I got me some new towels!!  They are so soft and wonderful

Alright, time to get back to the cooking and wrap this up

On a sadder note, but worth mentioning, tomorrow we are putting down our last pack dog Emma.  She has had a hard last couple months and I really think it is the right thing to do.  We love her very much and will miss her just as deeply as the others.  We hope that someday soon we will be able to get some new dogs, but for now we will just absorb the memories of these wonderful friends.

It has been a while since I properly blogged.  I have been having some ups and downs lately – to be expected I suppose.  I do think I am in a much better place then I was a couple weeks ago.  I have been reading a lot on being single and how to handle breakups and have learned a ton.  I have been single for a lot of years in my 20s and I never really learned what I needed which is why I have fallen into my old habits again.

I am leaving tomorrow again for work and will be gone through the weekend and that should help keep my mind off of things.  I have vowed to work on myself in this time that has been given to me.  I have started with the things that make me happy and I think that I should continue with that as I realize things that I want and need out of a relationship.  Then, now this is the key to all of this, I have to stick with that.  I have to recognize when I don’t get that and just walk away.

I have been sick the last couple days, been coughing a ton and hope that tomorrow I am a bit more clear in my head for the flight.  I really don’t want to fly when my ears won’t pop, but at least it is just one flight and not multiple times

I am going to be really focusing on exercising as well.  It is supposed to make you feel better chemically and I need just about all I can get right now.  I am still not back to eating properly – 1 maybe 2 meals a day.  Soon everything will be OK.  My goal is to lose about 40 pounds – have lost 20 so still have a good bit to go.

Will get back to blogging in Atlanta

So this morning I went to take a shower and there was a skink in there!  I saw it in my room a couple days ago, but could never find it, but this morning I sure did and that sucked

Anyway, worked out last night and felt super ill when I was on my way home so I didn’t eat any dinner and went to bed.  I don’t know what it is about the later workouts that I can’t get right, but I keep feeling sick afterwards but luckily I never do get sick.  Going to have to talk to my trainer tomorrow and see what he thinks about it.  I have been trying to eat a protein bar before, but that just ain’t cutting it!

I got the next step of confirmation for the White House tour when we go to DC.  I won’t know if we actually get a tour until a couple weeks, but I have my fingers crossed!  I am still very excited about this trip, it is going to be so fun.

OK, going to watch some Once Upon a Time and then go to bed early since I have an early conference call tomorrow morning.  Hopefully it goes better than last time

Got my hair done today, I just love that!  She always does such a great job, I always get compliments on it!

Also picked up a new necklace, one I can use for all my silver color stuff.  Then while I was walking around I saw a beautiful Opal set, ring, necklace, and ring – had to have it 😉

Going to head out here in a sec to go get some fried chicken for dinner – yummy!!