So I am not good at blogging – I admit, but I am trying to get better.  I got all my travel ones done while I was on the trips which is nice.  I also seem to not want to blog when I am doing a specific page like that too.

I have been having a great time lately which is so much needed.  I am a little concerned about getting back to real life, but I have learned a lot about myself and about people and what I should accept from relationships – that includes friendships.

I have always really held back when it comes to meeting people, but I have decided to try not to do that anymore – again, this is friends probably more than romantic type relationships.  I have made a couple new friends recently through work and other places and I am experiencing all new things because of it.  I have a new friend who lives far away and it is just so free and fun.  There is no pressure because I am not able to hang out with them or anything.  I just want to get to know them.  I want to have more friends more people to share my life with.  There is a possibility that things will be hard for me in the future with relationships like this,  but I am never one to hold back on feelings and I am just happy to even be having this kind of feeling again.  I was really worried that I was going to be broken forever.

I just wanna feel like I am living