7. Talking

This seems like a simple thing or a no brainer, but it is incredibly difficult for me to discuss things that are bothering me with my partner or friends.  I tend to let things that bother me go and I really have always thought that your significant other should be the person that you can tell anything to or discuss any issue with, yet I have never actually experienced that.

An open relationship doesn’t have to be painful.  if you get in front of issues it shows you are willing to do the hard work it takes to make a lasting relationship.  You can determine the issues and decide together if you are willing to make it work or if it should just be severed.

One day…

6. Feel Wanted

I need to feel wanted.  Not just by a man, but by friends too.  Showing that you are not a burden or being talked to because of some guilty feeling means so much.  I don’t always want to reach out to you and to be honest – texting is not reaching out at all!!!  I write letters to people when I travel because to me the idea of receiving a real letter is amazing.  Fun fact – no one has ever written me a letter back!

If someone wants to me to be a part of their life, they are going to have to start showing it by reaching out to me sometimes – a call, a letter – something that shows a bit more effort than texting me some canned thing :)

5. Making Plans

This is another that I feel strange for saying, but it is something I want.  I want to be able to make plans with someone.  The idea that someone won’t make plans with you means that they are not sure if doing what you want to do or doing something with you is worth it and that something better might come along that they might want to do.  Not being able to commit to even a date is a bad sign!!

I no longer want to “go with the flow” or just see what happens.  I want to make plans and that includes dates :)

Today was a Pretty Good Day!

Actually this weekend was pretty good.  I feel like I got a lot accomplished since I got back from Atlanta.  I got myself my birthday present – a little early, but I just can’t keep a present from myself :) Also, I didn’t really expect to find what I really wanted so quickly, but I did so I had to have it.  I will post some pictures of it later.  I worked out a plan with my brother to get the property cleaned up and I got myself new safety glasses, that actually fit!!  Paul got the router working and so the website is back up and I can write this :)

My 37th Birthday Present to Myself!!
My 37th Birthday Present to Myself!!

I got a new hair do as well – it isn’t crazy different but just enough to make me feel a bit better – everyone knows that when a woman has a big change in her life she MUST do something different to her hair :)

Last, but something I am happy about, I got me some new towels!!  They are so soft and wonderful :)

Alright, time to get back to the cooking and wrap this up :)

On a sadder note, but worth mentioning, tomorrow we are putting down our last pack dog Emma.  She has had a hard last couple months and I really think it is the right thing to do.  We love her very much and will miss her just as deeply as the others.  We hope that someday soon we will be able to get some new dogs, but for now we will just absorb the memories of these wonderful friends.

Been a While

It has been a while since I properly blogged.  I have been having some ups and downs lately – to be expected I suppose.  I do think I am in a much better place then I was a couple weeks ago.  I have been reading a lot on being single and how to handle breakups and have learned a ton.  I have been single for a lot of years in my 20s and I never really learned what I needed which is why I have fallen into my old habits again.

I am leaving tomorrow again for work and will be gone through the weekend and that should help keep my mind off of things.  I have vowed to work on myself in this time that has been given to me.  I have started with the things that make me happy and I think that I should continue with that as I realize things that I want and need out of a relationship.  Then, now this is the key to all of this, I have to stick with that.  I have to recognize when I don’t get that and just walk away.

I have been sick the last couple days, been coughing a ton and hope that tomorrow I am a bit more clear in my head for the flight.  I really don’t want to fly when my ears won’t pop, but at least it is just one flight and not multiple times :)

I am going to be really focusing on exercising as well.  It is supposed to make you feel better chemically and I need just about all I can get right now.  I am still not back to eating properly – 1 maybe 2 meals a day.  Soon everything will be OK.  My goal is to lose about 40 pounds – have lost 20 so still have a good bit to go.

Will get back to blogging in Atlanta :)

Day 4 – Sunshine and Sunshine!!

I am trying this from my phone so it may not be great but here goes!

Today is the last day here and we are sitting on the mall right now bathed in sunshine!  It is a wonderful day and I wish that the whole trip could have been like this but over all t was retry great anyway.

Today we are going to the Bureau of Printing and Engraving.  Gonna see how that money is really made :) Taking a quick stop at the restrooms in front of the Washington Monument where we just got done taking a bunch of photos in the nice light.  Alright – off to see the money!!!

The tour of the Bureau of Printing and Engraving was pretty cool.  It was actually short and sweet, but the machines and the process that you could see was interesting.  It did have an overwhelming smell of money though and after just a bit of time it was bad.  They sold all kinds of stuff there, shredded money and uncut money sheets and stuff, but I just got an magnet.

We just finished up lunch at the USDA.  They have a cafeteria that is open to the public that some security guard said was pretty good.  It was good, but I am not sure that it is like special food or anything.  It was pretty cool that they are huge into recycling and stuff.

Now we are just taking our time headed back to the hotel so that we can catch a bus to the airport and head home.  I think 4 days was a bit much, but it was nice that today was by far the best day weather wise that we have had.  yesterday would have been good, but Saturday we walked so much that I was just exhausted and I think Paul was a little worn out as well.

I will probably take some time in a couple days to write again about the trip when everything has had a little bit of time to sink in.  I will also try to post the pictures while we are in the airport and I am trying to put descriptions on everything so it will be easy to know what it is :)

Day 3 – Museums and Rain?

Today I am going to try to blog during the day rather then coming back to the hotel and doing it at night.  I was going to try to do that yesterday, but the weather just would not allow it.  I think that today we are going to focus on museums as we did most of the monuments yesterday.  I do want to go to Union Station just to see it today at some point.  Anyway, check back if you are watching for updates!!

Well we started off by trying to go to the Bureau of Printing and Engraving but it was closed today so we are going to get there tomorrow.  Then we walked over to the National Museum of Natural History and saw several of the exhibits.  But then all the exhaustion hit me like a ton of bricks.  I just couldn’t do anymore so we headed back to the hotel.  Paul and Carlos went to get some food and now we are all just relaxing in the room for a bit.  Not sure if we will get back out again today – most stuff closes early today and it is already 14:00.  Going to try to see about a night tour, but I am betting those don’t happen on Sunday night.

Luckily we were able to get a tour tonight!!  It was really awesome, the only problem was how COLD it was!!!!  All of the monuments we went to were really pretty nice lit all up, especially the Lincoln Memorial.  We got a lot of good pictures, but I don’t have most of them.  The pics with the regular phone wasn’t that great with all the lights, but I will try to post them anyway.  We also got to see Union Station as that was where the tour started and then the tour also went in front of the White House and that was good because we didn’t get to walk over there.

Well, it is very late now and we have had a very long day so I am going to finish up some other stuff and rest my tired bones!  Won’t post pictures until tomorrow, sorry :(

4. Walking Together

So this one seems a little silly, but it makes me happy when the person you are with doesn’t leave you in the dust as you are walking into a place or just walking around.  My last boyfriend would often leave me behind – I am short, I can’t keep your crazy pace all the time, slow down so I don’t feel like a child or that you are not with me!!!

Anyway, to me it shows that they want you next to them, right by their side and not like you are tagging along.

Day 2 – Monuments and Rain!!

Today was another pretty good day trip wise, but still pretty poor weather wise.  It was very cold and very windy, but only a slight drizzle as opposed to the rain we saw yesterday.

We started today with some breakfast from Starbucks – well, coffee :)  Then we were on our way to the mall.  We got off the train a stop early because there was a delay and that put us out at Federal Triangle.  This brought us to the Ronald Reagan Building and International Trade Center which doesn’t sound very great, but Paul has this camera that takes amazing 360 degree pictures!!  So it actually make for some great pics.  We then crossed the street to Freedom Plaza which is like a map of the city and we took some more pics.

Then we were at the mall and the first thing we saw was the Washington Monument.  I am not sure why, but this is my favorite one.  There was some sort of special thing going on where it was like they were setting up for a concert or something.  But we were still able to have clear shots for pics, even if you couldn’t actually see that far away due to the weather.

We walked towards the WWII Memorial, which was pretty cool.  Very big and pretty.  We continued down along the Reflecting Pool to the Korean War Veterans Memorial.  This one is another of my favorites, it has soldiers walking through the brush like they would have during the war.  It also had a very nice wall with images like ghosted into it.  Paul got a good panorama of that.

Lincoln Memorial was next.  This is pretty amazing, it is so huge.  We walked all the way around it and then went inside.  Such an amazing scale and looking over the entire mall, it is a great thing.  Got some good pictures in there too.  After that we walked through the Vietnam Veterans Memorial.  This is cool looking and such a nice concept.  We didn’t get to see anyone doing like a pencil rub due to the rain, but people were looking for the names of loved ones anyway and that was pretty nice to see.

After that we had to kill some time before we could go up in the Washington Monument so we just walked down the mall.  But then we were right back for the ride all the way to the top!!  This was very cool.  Got pics from up there although you couldn’t really see too well because there was rain on the glass and the visibility was poor.

For lunch we ate at the National Gallery of Art Sculpture Garden Cafe.  This was where we had walked through the day before and I got the AMOR and spider pics.  The food was nothing spectacular but the seats were a very nice surprise!!!  We needed a break because we hadn’t stopped basically all day and it was like 14:00 before we even ate.

Hirshhorn Museum & Sculpture Garden was next.  This building is round like a doughnut.  So the middle was missing :).  I got a pic of a cool sculpture called Subcommittee.  I don’t know, I just liked it.  Next we were going to go the the Smithsonian Castle, but apparently it is closed for renovations so onwards we went to the National Air and Space Museum.  This was pretty cool, lots of planes obviously, but it was the end of the day and they were closing soon and we were all pretty tired.  So we left about 5 minutes before they closed and headed back to the hotel.

Well that about sums up the day.  Sorry if it was a bit long but that is what this is for after all :)  Hope you enjoyed and go to the picture gallery to see the cool shots!!!

3. Vacations

I realize that traveling for vacation makes me very happy.  I like going new places and I like to share those experiences with special people.  I want to find the local places to eat or cool things to see, it is very exciting.  It doesn’t have to be anyplace crazy, but one day I do want to travel to Europe, but I would hate to do that with someone who wasn’t going to stick around – I don’t ever want bad memories around something as special as that.