Oh my gosh I can not believe it but my dad is now 85!!!  He has had such an amazing life, or lives is what I like to think.  He had multiple adopted families along the way which is why I like to think he has lived several lives.  I am so lucky that he has been so active and with me for so much of my life.  He is the man I love the absolute most and always will.  I am afraid no man will ever compare – and that sir is the sign that you are a great father!

I love you dad and happy happy birthday!

I have a ton of trips coming up, which I will be blogging while I am away but the point is that I am so happy to be starting to get back to normal.  Traveling was pretty much a huge part of my life a couple years ago and I can use some normalcy in my life right now.

My very next trip is only to Atlanta, but I am still very happy to be going.  I will be seeing some people who I like very much there and that is always good.

I put all the trips blogs here if you are interested

This week was a big one for work.  We had so many people from all over the company down here in Jacksonville to do some training.  They were a really good group of people and I think that it all went really well.

We went to dinner one night, but I wasn’t able to really stay because I had a hair appointment which I was a little disappointed about, but you know how them hair appointments go – I LOVE THEM!!!!

Then last night we went to the HQ building and that actually turned out really great because 3 very important people in the signaling world were still there for the day and talked with the group for a good hour.  It was just really good timing, I was very happy.

After that we went to the landing to eat some dinner and then it got really fun!!  I had a bit too much to drink and was just laughing like I was a crazy person and having a great time.  It has been a long time since I had done that and it was much needed.  Like I said earlier, these were a great group of people and I couldn’t ask for better treatment from people who you just met (most of them I had just met this week).  They really took care of me, or maybe a better way to put it is watched out for me to make sure I was having a good time and staying out of harms way.

I wish I had taken like 1 picture to capture the moment, but to be honest I was really living in the moment – which is what we are supposed to do, right?

Great week overall and it has been a while since I could say that phrase!

Today we welcomed a new family member, Penny Dog!

She is pretty stinking sweet.  I love her already.  I think she is coming to us at a perfect time – for me at least.

I am headed to bed now so more later

I spent the weekend with the Tarmas’ and it was very special.  They just allowed me to be in their home and just showed me love and reassured me that they were my friends through all the hard times – just like I would be for them.

My friend Deanna has been very helpful too.  Without her I would have never sought professional help.  She is a wonderful person who I love very much just like the Tarmas’ (all of them).

I have still been very tired – not getting much rest but spending much time in bed.  I think I may ask my doctor for some Ambient or something that will allow me to sleep for more than 4 hours at a time.

Also, on a good note, we are getting a dog tomorrow.  My mom is getting it from a friend and I am very happy.  Dogs are very therapeutic and I think it will help me feel a bit better.

Alright, I am going to get some sleep now, try to be more interesting another day.

Today is the day that I get help to get past this horrible nightmare.  I have high hopes for this session and know that after all of this is over I will be better person.  I already know I am a better person than my ex, that isn’t too hard to be.  I will post more on this entry when I get back.

I am so tired of being over emotional over this.  It has been over a month now – could have been less if someone would have been honest, but that is besides the point.

I am going to try to get a little more sleep before I go, but like I said will update when I get back.

The meeting went well, I feel much better.  I have another one tomorrow and again in a couple weeks, will see how it goes then.

Didn’t sleep any today either, hoping tonight will be better.