9. Not Always Being Sorry

I have a bad habit of saying sorry even when I really have nothing to be sorry about.

The more accurate thing could be oh, excuse me or pardon me, but sorry is most likely not the right response and it really wears on me to think about how much I say sorry and how little others say it.

No, I am no longer sorry for reacting to having my feelings hurt when someone has lied to me or used me or treated me unfairly.  I am not sorry for loving you even when you didn’t deserve it.  I am not sorry for your sake I am not sorry for MY sake.  I will no longer feel shame of my feelings.  If I love someone or something about someone I will no longer feel afraid to say it.  Love is nothing to be sorry for and having feelings that you need to express is nothing to be sorry for.

People are sorry if they take other people’s caring as being something to be sorry about.

This is all about things that will make me happy – admitting this is something that has to happen in order for me to truly be happy.  I am a loving person, I want to be loved and I want to love.  I love people and things very easily, is that really so bad?  What is bad is when I am ashamed of those feelings or afraid of those feelings.

Sorry, not sorry!